parallax23: (reading)
Yesterday morning I got a phone call that I had a job assignment over at Penguin Publishing.

I kid you not, I got paid to wander about Penguin filling in for the receptionists and guard the gates.  My brother asked if I died and went to book heaven.  It was nothing glamorous, but it was pretty awesome to be there.  I was scribbling the outline to Aerie (for the thousandth time to make sure I'm keeping with the flow) and kept thinking, someday, one day soon, MY BOOK is going to be up in those showcases.  I just have to finish it...
parallax23: (words lost meaning)
It's obvious that I won't be able to finish Aerie by the end of November because I've got other things I have to take care of.

But I want to finish Aerie for ME.  I haven't finished a story in so long, and I would like to stop holding myself back.  I'm still writing Aerie as much as time allows.  It's a great trilogy and I want to share it with people.  Hopefully, they find it as cool as I do.  I was talking to one of my friends about the story, and she liked it because she said it totally plays on the emotional turmoil of its characters.

I do credit NaNo with kicking my ass in gear to try original writing and writing in general again.

I am going to finish Aerie.  I am going to finish the trilogy.  Even if it kills me.

As a side note, I still haven't given up on my fanfic totally.  I may have mentioned this before, but if I know I'm not going to finish them, I will be posting the spoiler endings to all of the series except The XYZ Affair.
parallax23: (Default)
I've decided to post my word count at the start of every new week.  It forces me to keep track of my progress. 

Seven days of writing have amounted to this much.

3432 / 50000 words. 7% done!

That's not counting the first three days (about 2,500 words) of work that I tossed.  But I've got a break coming up and enough inspiration to keep me going.  In high school, I could write 10-12 pages per day when I was off so I'm hoping to regain some ground there.  I didn't get any writing done on Saturday. I was running errands all day...  That night I got smashed at my friend's birthday then had to spend Sunday sleeping it off.  That is the last time I go drinking without eating.
parallax23: (not the hammer)
After deciding to hit reverse and shift gears, I ended writing almost 2k words for Aerie last night, which was twice what I'd written for The Destroyers on the first day.  I should have some extra free time next week to make up for the ground I lost, but plowing through a story that doesn't want to be written was bogging me down even worse.

I've figured out how to do the word count for my notebook as well. 

1 line = 11 words
1 page = 26 lines

I might just finish this!

Now if all my problems could be solved so easily...
parallax23: (not again)
Blah blah blah, I choked on The Destroyers.  I just couldn't get into the characters' heads and the story wasn't flowing.  Also, I had a disaster with Google Docs and am now trying to salvage Chapter 2.  FYI, Google Docs doesn't compare to MS Word.  Don't even think it.  It's like using WordPad.  It actually might be worse than WordPad because it has a higher crash rate.

Anyway, I'm switching to my back-up story Aerie.  I'm also writing it by hand after that whole mess.  At least it's early enough for me to salvage.
parallax23: (stagger)
I'm on the bus going uptown and bored. This is why my Blackberry is awesome. It's three days more until NaNo, and I've actually narrowed down the finalists for this year's entry. It's either going to be Aerie (a high fantasy trilogy) or The Destroyers (a coming of age story about teens who learn that life and morality aren't as black and white as they were led to believe, based on my college years, which is when I did most of the sketch and excerpt writing for it).

At first, Aerie was in the lead because I'd finally managed to get the dreaded Chapter 1 written, which was a huge stalling point for writing it. But now The Destroyers is pulling into the lead. Ironically, The Destroyers started as a modern fantasy story based on Hinduism when I was 16.  It's one of my longest running pet projects, and I just look at it baffled at the numerous revisions that led to its current form.  That's the main reason no cohesive manuscript exists.  It just kept changing the rules on me every few months.  Also, the story drew a ton of inspiration from my high school and college years, and it was how I coped with having my heart broken for the first time.  That story owns a piece of my soul.

I'm revising this entry at home now, and I think I've come to the conclusion that The Destroyers is going to be my NaNo.  I feel like I'm at the point I can write The Destroyers and not feel like the past is eating away at me.  Finishing this story has more meaning than just finishing my first story in years, it's me making peace with my past and finally putting it behind me.

Can I finally do it this time?
parallax23: (Default)
After a totally awesome birthday weekend, I'm back in action. 

I'm currently reading Neil Gaiman's American Gods, which has to be the most awesome book he's written and I've read Neverwhere and Stardust, but not Anansi Boys yet.  He's one of the most brilliant fantasy writers I've read.  I'm hoping to finish the book before I start NaNo, because I can't read and write at the same time.

I haven't chosen which story I'm going to do for NaNo yet.  I've had several stories sketched out -- Aerie, last year's failed attempt that was revamped and Prufrock are my main ones.  Aerie is in the lead because I've had it on the brain for a bit lately.  I would have preferred a stand alone novel, not a trilogy starter.  There's also a myriad of other stories I could do, like Elara or a retelling of Puss in Boots or the retelling of the Iliad story.  But I take what the inspiration gives... 

I am going to finish one this year.  That's my goal.  I'm even going to Staples to buy a notebook for it.  I feel sort of vindicated about writing by hand, because when I was in high school people thought I was weird for not typing my stories.  I can't write a first draft on a computer because my brain just doesn't register digital text the same way.  Like sometimes I feel like I want a word to start with a certain letter just because I like the feeling of drawing that letter, that word, out.

Unfortunately, there are no updates for the DA fanfics.  I'd like to finish Between The Lines, but I lost Chapter 7 and I have to find it.  That one is so close to done I can feel it.  I'm still working on them when I find time.
parallax23: (wrong)
Okay, it's 1.30am on the third day of NaNoWriMo and I've already given up.

Why?  It's not for lack of inspiration.  I've come up with some fun ideas for my story.

It's because I don't write like this.  (Not because I'm a wuss or lost my writing stamina for novels.)

1) I like to linger and trace over an idea for a story in my head before I write it down.  I usually make a lot of notes and sketches before going through with it, but I abhor outlines.

2) I don't type my stories for a first draft.  I just don't.  It's been a rule of thumb that has garnered me odd looks since I first started writing.  I'm an absolute nut job, but it has to be handwritten or I will in fact go insane (I had once theorized this but now have come to realize that it is a fact thanks to this).  The story just doesn't flow.  My brain does not register that it's a story unless my hands are scribbling.

3) If my entire methodology for writing is in conflict with this, there's no way I can properly continue.  This was a test run, but obviously this was the wrong venue to push myself into.

4) I do plan on writing Confessions of a Fairy Godmother (working title which I abhor but can't find an adequate replacement for at the moment) as a novel, except at my own pace not brain puke.

Now I need some sleep.

P.S. That means I have to slink off and edit the next chapter of Wake Me Up...  I came up with a scene I've decided to insert into Chapter 5, which is already too long because I put part of Chapter 4 in AND now want an extra scene.  :P