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Being in grad school, having a boss who impersonates Pol Pot and all that other life stuff in between really wreaks havoc on trying to write. I can't even believe that November is over and I didn't get the chance to write anything.
Ironically, this is the month when there was an episode of Being Erica where the lead character realizes she's gotten far away from her dream of writing fiction. Then the entire episode of The Simpsons featuring Neil Gaiman and the entire publishing industry. Then someone said that it figured that I couldn't keep writing because I've never been the sort of person who could finish what I started, which I found insulting. That kind of got my gears in motion that I had fallen out of my writing habits, and writing is a habit and perpetual process no matter what. Then I got a kick in the pants when I saw that someone reviewed Wake... and I felt floored.
How did I let myself fall off the wagon like that? I put my fanfic aside for original writing and I ended up accomplishing very little in either. I keep starting stories but then scrapping them, I remember reading that when a writer did that too often, it signaled a lack of belief in herself and therefore the story. I've gotten stronger resolve to finish Between the Lines since its the closest story to being done. I even worked past an inconsistency that I didn't like just two days ago. Once that's done, it's on to Wake... and eventually Long December.
Ironically, this is the month when there was an episode of Being Erica where the lead character realizes she's gotten far away from her dream of writing fiction. Then the entire episode of The Simpsons featuring Neil Gaiman and the entire publishing industry. Then someone said that it figured that I couldn't keep writing because I've never been the sort of person who could finish what I started, which I found insulting. That kind of got my gears in motion that I had fallen out of my writing habits, and writing is a habit and perpetual process no matter what. Then I got a kick in the pants when I saw that someone reviewed Wake... and I felt floored.
How did I let myself fall off the wagon like that? I put my fanfic aside for original writing and I ended up accomplishing very little in either. I keep starting stories but then scrapping them, I remember reading that when a writer did that too often, it signaled a lack of belief in herself and therefore the story. I've gotten stronger resolve to finish Between the Lines since its the closest story to being done. I even worked past an inconsistency that I didn't like just two days ago. Once that's done, it's on to Wake... and eventually Long December.