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Letting Go and Writing What You Know
Jun. 9th, 2015 10:20 pmYesterday in improv class, I kept trying to figure out why I freeze when it's my scene. I know what to say when I'm in the audience, but when I'm setting a scene, I get nervous. I have performance anxiety.
I realized that I needed to just let go and be myself. I needed to stop putting pressure on myself to get to something. I needed to let go.
Then I remembered my writer's block. I recall that I've always found that my life experiences have been the greatest inspiration for my stories. I let myself go and just embraced my life's challenges and reset myself. In that moment, I came up with a new story idea. Not fanfic, not a rehash of an old idea - a new story.
Even though it's a fantasy story, I know what I'm writing about. The struggle of taking up a challenge when no one else seems interested. Struggling against cowardice. I've always been the sort of person that things came to me when I wanted them to happen, and I really didn't have to fight much, though I always worked hard. I've never had an adversarial nature, but one that naturally flowed with the world. Things always worked out when I let go.
While writing all of the fanfics this year, all I could think was how much I regretted not pursuing screenwriting in college. I changed my mind on the application at the last minute because I needed a 'real job' when I left school. Funny how life takes you different places that you thought you'd end up... Not that I don't enjoy what I do, it's what I've always said I wanted to do... I've done everything I've wanted to do in my career, except being a writer. Maybe this will be the year?
I realized that I needed to just let go and be myself. I needed to stop putting pressure on myself to get to something. I needed to let go.
Then I remembered my writer's block. I recall that I've always found that my life experiences have been the greatest inspiration for my stories. I let myself go and just embraced my life's challenges and reset myself. In that moment, I came up with a new story idea. Not fanfic, not a rehash of an old idea - a new story.
Even though it's a fantasy story, I know what I'm writing about. The struggle of taking up a challenge when no one else seems interested. Struggling against cowardice. I've always been the sort of person that things came to me when I wanted them to happen, and I really didn't have to fight much, though I always worked hard. I've never had an adversarial nature, but one that naturally flowed with the world. Things always worked out when I let go.
While writing all of the fanfics this year, all I could think was how much I regretted not pursuing screenwriting in college. I changed my mind on the application at the last minute because I needed a 'real job' when I left school. Funny how life takes you different places that you thought you'd end up... Not that I don't enjoy what I do, it's what I've always said I wanted to do... I've done everything I've wanted to do in my career, except being a writer. Maybe this will be the year?