Between the Lines - Final Commentary
Apr. 15th, 2018 09:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
parallax23Returning to the fandom was a fluke. In late December 2017, I happened to see that Michael Weatherly and Jessica Alba were going to be on the same episode of Live with Kelly & Ryan. Also, it came out that Ryan Seacrest was Jensen Ackles’ roommate back in the day too. I remembered what I had left unfinished, and I wanted that to not be my legacy as a writer. I had left so many works unfinished over the years, both original and fandom, I should finish this at the very least.
While writing the last chapters, I was constantly hit with reflections of my life when I began writing this fic back in 2009. I watched Dark Angel during its original run back in 2000-2002, and yes, I have been a fan of M/A since Designate This first aired in 2001. It’s 2018 and they’re still my OTP, so that says it all right there.
In 2008, I happened to wonder if there was a fan-written ending to it and decided to check out FFN. After reading so many fics, I really wanted to give the series my own ending as well. At the same time, the alphabet challenge was in full swing and I really had fun making up all of these other stories for Max and Alec. I realized that the topic of Max’s mother had not been explored in Season 2, but also that given the way the series played out with Lydecker admitting to using his wife’s DNA for Max, it didn’t make sense for Max to have a mother anymore. Also, if she had one, then the other transgenics would need ones as well. So, I wanted to write about Max looking for her mother, only to realize this didn’t make sense either.
While there’s not much by way of romance between Max and Alec, it really was an effort to stay true to how the series had left them, as BTL takes place between Borrowed Time and Harbor Lights. It’s strange how I’ve always known what I wanted to happen, how I wanted it to happen, yet somehow it just wasn’t getting written.
When I graduated from college in 2008, I was still adjusting to what it meant to be an adult. Gone were the school days where there was so much time to write and learning new things every day about the world, and long stretches of summer to write all day. I didn’t realize how challenging writing on a 9 to 5 schedule would be. I had planned to be done with all fics by 2012 at the latest. I didn’t think I’d return to the fandom or be interested in revisiting an old favorite with so many new shows to watch. Somehow, life gets really busy when you’re an adult and somehow a month becomes a year, and so on. From 2011 to 2014, I was in grad school and had a new job every year. It was 2015 when I resigned to the notion that maybe I wasn’t going to finish.
Here we are in 2018, and even though much of the fandom has fizzled into the world of internet oblivion with the loss of Nuns With Pens and Gumboot Mafia, I feel like I still owe it to myself to finish. I didn’t finish writing all those years ago because my life was a mess and I felt so lost. Being able to finish BTL is symbolic of how far I’ve come in my life.
While writing the last chapters, I was constantly hit with reflections of my life when I began writing this fic back in 2009. I watched Dark Angel during its original run back in 2000-2002, and yes, I have been a fan of M/A since Designate This first aired in 2001. It’s 2018 and they’re still my OTP, so that says it all right there.
In 2008, I happened to wonder if there was a fan-written ending to it and decided to check out FFN. After reading so many fics, I really wanted to give the series my own ending as well. At the same time, the alphabet challenge was in full swing and I really had fun making up all of these other stories for Max and Alec. I realized that the topic of Max’s mother had not been explored in Season 2, but also that given the way the series played out with Lydecker admitting to using his wife’s DNA for Max, it didn’t make sense for Max to have a mother anymore. Also, if she had one, then the other transgenics would need ones as well. So, I wanted to write about Max looking for her mother, only to realize this didn’t make sense either.
While there’s not much by way of romance between Max and Alec, it really was an effort to stay true to how the series had left them, as BTL takes place between Borrowed Time and Harbor Lights. It’s strange how I’ve always known what I wanted to happen, how I wanted it to happen, yet somehow it just wasn’t getting written.
When I graduated from college in 2008, I was still adjusting to what it meant to be an adult. Gone were the school days where there was so much time to write and learning new things every day about the world, and long stretches of summer to write all day. I didn’t realize how challenging writing on a 9 to 5 schedule would be. I had planned to be done with all fics by 2012 at the latest. I didn’t think I’d return to the fandom or be interested in revisiting an old favorite with so many new shows to watch. Somehow, life gets really busy when you’re an adult and somehow a month becomes a year, and so on. From 2011 to 2014, I was in grad school and had a new job every year. It was 2015 when I resigned to the notion that maybe I wasn’t going to finish.
Here we are in 2018, and even though much of the fandom has fizzled into the world of internet oblivion with the loss of Nuns With Pens and Gumboot Mafia, I feel like I still owe it to myself to finish. I didn’t finish writing all those years ago because my life was a mess and I felt so lost. Being able to finish BTL is symbolic of how far I’ve come in my life.