Got Guts?

[parallax23]

And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.  -- Sylvia Plath

Most beginning writers - and I was the same - are like chefs trying to cook great dishes that they've never tasted themselves. How can you make a great - or even an adequate - bouillabaisse if you've never had any? If you don't really understand why people read mysteries - or romances or literary novels or thrillers or whatever - then there's no way in the world you're going to write one that anyone wants to publish. This is the meaning of the well-known expression "Write what you know." -- Daniel Quinn

Well, in my imagination, my writing is getting better.  I'm trying to be gutsier, if that's even a real word.  Today I'm taking a break but I've been kicking my own ass to write things I like reading but didn't have the guts to write myself.  It's baby steps, what can I say?  Don't ask why I would not write swearing, love scenes or use snarkier dialog when writing.  I don't get it either, but I'm working on it.  I think sarcastically but write like a prude.  I'd see a therapist about it, but I write, it's cheaper and I don't like social interaction much anyway.

Hopefully I'll get inspired or somehow find a medium for my madness. 

The one good thing about being back from my break?  I realize how little I tried to push myself creatively.  I was often going for endurance (the longest story I've written is probably somewhere along 200 pages), not style.  I mean, I recognized changes in my writing style as the years have gone by, but I really didn't challenge myself to make it more readable.  I was never trying to make it catchy.  I assumed that since I had such a whirlwind of enthusiasm writing it that it would inherit that readability.  It didn't. 

So here I am, writing and posting like a maniac on ff.net, praying for feedback.