Three Days Grace...
Oct. 29th, 2010 02:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
parallax23I'm on the bus going uptown and bored. This is why my Blackberry is awesome. It's three days more until NaNo, and I've actually narrowed down the finalists for this year's entry. It's either going to be Aerie (a high fantasy trilogy) or The Destroyers (a coming of age story about teens who learn that life and morality aren't as black and white as they were led to believe, based on my college years, which is when I did most of the sketch and excerpt writing for it).
At first, Aerie was in the lead because I'd finally managed to get the dreaded Chapter 1 written, which was a huge stalling point for writing it. But now The Destroyers is pulling into the lead. Ironically, The Destroyers started as a modern fantasy story based on Hinduism when I was 16. It's one of my longest running pet projects, and I just look at it baffled at the numerous revisions that led to its current form. That's the main reason no cohesive manuscript exists. It just kept changing the rules on me every few months. Also, the story drew a ton of inspiration from my high school and college years, and it was how I coped with having my heart broken for the first time. That story owns a piece of my soul.
I'm revising this entry at home now, and I think I've come to the conclusion that The Destroyers is going to be my NaNo. I feel like I'm at the point I can write The Destroyers and not feel like the past is eating away at me. Finishing this story has more meaning than just finishing my first story in years, it's me making peace with my past and finally putting it behind me.
Can I finally do it this time?
At first, Aerie was in the lead because I'd finally managed to get the dreaded Chapter 1 written, which was a huge stalling point for writing it. But now The Destroyers is pulling into the lead. Ironically, The Destroyers started as a modern fantasy story based on Hinduism when I was 16. It's one of my longest running pet projects, and I just look at it baffled at the numerous revisions that led to its current form. That's the main reason no cohesive manuscript exists. It just kept changing the rules on me every few months. Also, the story drew a ton of inspiration from my high school and college years, and it was how I coped with having my heart broken for the first time. That story owns a piece of my soul.
I'm revising this entry at home now, and I think I've come to the conclusion that The Destroyers is going to be my NaNo. I feel like I'm at the point I can write The Destroyers and not feel like the past is eating away at me. Finishing this story has more meaning than just finishing my first story in years, it's me making peace with my past and finally putting it behind me.
Can I finally do it this time?